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Endings and their Beginnings

When a play ends, an audience begins to clap. When a new relationship begins, loneliness ends as a result. When someone is terminated from their job of 10 years they then begin the search for another job. When you begin to believe in yourself what ends? To be more specific what has to end?

Whenever I would start something new, I had a hard time maintaining the energy to keep it going. One moment I have a day planned out filled with goals I’m enthusiastically ready to get done then a few hours in, I’m hanging off my bed upside down watching my 10th YouTube video on how society is going to collapse. It’s never intentional of course. I never say to myself, “You know what…let’s bullshit today.” The conversation goes more like, “Alright let me check this message…Ok let me look this up it could be important….Alright back to work now….hey Siri who is the president of Jupiter?” This unintentional cycle of bullshitting permeates throughout the day and next thing you know I’ve made zero dollars but I have bought food, two courses I’m not going to think about again and a pet python because it was on sale. Clown shit if you ask me.

After I analyze my lack of work , I then get back into my Buddhist mindset and ask myself what I did wrong. I’ve gone through this cycle of trying something then disecting what went wrong so many times, I forgot the true secret ingredient to getting results, at least different results. That ingredient is change. In other words I did not clearly consider what I need to end within myself in order to begin something new. I’ve come up with this list of behaviors that need to end in order for me to finally be effective:

  • Waking up inconsistently
  • Not having a consistent morning routine
  • Frivolous spending
  • Succumbing to negative feelings/energy
  • Thinking that tomorrow is suppose to come

Sweet. Now that I’ve identified what I need to end there has to be a subsequent list of things to start. According to the rules of dichotomy it’s only right.

  • Waking up at the same time everyday
  • Spend time on passions (language, software, gardening, martial arts)
  • Create a budget and stick to it
  • Commit to intense work for no less than 4 hours daily
  • Use sports to channel energy
  • Living in the here and now

Now that I have my personal lists of beginnings and endings, now I need a project. Some kind of activity to demonstrate my new found commitment to myself. That is where Jaynology is born, and for my first few subscribers, you are witnessing the rise of a phoenix forming a new version of himself with the ashes of who he previously was.

My question to you is what are three things you NEED to end within yourself and three things you HAVE to start to get what you want?


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